The Quill of Samantha Grace Newcastle

ptsd

  • Responding to your “it”

    DEPRESSION you think you can drain me and call it truth you tell me I am nothing over and over like repetition makes it real IT DOES NOT You are a distortion not a verdict And I am still here Breathing Existing Living in a world you said I would not survive That alone proves you wrong BIPOLAR DISORDER you… Read more

  • webbed dust

    dust collects on the edges of memories living room walls grayed with outlines of what was,photographs hang in webbed silence each face frozen in a laugh that no longer resounds Their love as a vase cracked, yet still holding water,the stems of our shared days with petals dry, dead on the floor, they dropped only… Read more

  • it is very real

    Below are common C-PTSD markers, especially as they appear after long-term narcissistic or relational abuse. 1. Emotional DysregulationDifficulty returning to baseline after stress.Sudden anger, irritation, or rage (often followed by shame)Emotional numbness or shutdownFeeling “too much” or “nothing at all”Overwhelm from relatively small triggers 2. Persistent HypervigilanceThe nervous system stays in threat mode.Constant scanning for… Read more