Responding to your “it”

DEPRESSION 
you think you can drain me and call it truth you tell me I am nothing over and over like repetition makes it real 
IT DOES NOT 
You are a distortion not a verdict And I am still here Breathing Existing Living in a world you said I would not survive 
That alone proves you wrong


BIPOLAR DISORDER 
you whip me between extremes and call it who I am like I am nothing more than your chaos You throw me into fire then bury me in ice and wait for me to shatter 
BUT I AM NOT YOUR SWINGS 
I am the one who endures them You are chaos 
I am PERSISTENCE


ANXIETY 
you flood my body fast loud relentless and scream danger where there is none You hijack my breath My chest My thoughts 
But I see you now 
You are a FALSE ALARM that refuses to shut up Be as loud as you want 
You are not in charge


OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER 
you demand rituals and disguise them as safety you push and push and push until my hands ache until my mind fractures under the weight of “just one more time” 
But you NEVER DELIVER what you promise 
Not once And I am learning slowly stubbornly where the exit is


POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER 
you drag me backward without warning you freeze me in moments that are already over You replay pain like it is happening now 
IT IS NOT 
That moment is finished Even if you refuse to move on I will I survived it once I will not keep reliving it for you


BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER 
you twist love until it feels dangerous unstable sharp impossible to hold You make me reach then recoil again and again 
But I AM NOT DOOMED to destroy everything I touch You are intensity without direction 
I can learn steadiness I can choose something softer something real


SCHIZOPHRENIA 
you bend reality fill silence with voices that were never invited You try to replace what is real with fear 
But even now even in the confusion there is a part of me that questions you That part is STRONGER than you want it to be And I will hold onto it


ATTENTION DEFICIT HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER 
you scatter my focus into fragments you leave noise where clarity should be The world calls me a failure because of you 
But MY MIND IS NOT BROKEN 
It works differently Not worse I will not let you turn difference into shame


DISSOCIATIVE IDENTITY DISORDER 
you fractured me when I could not survive whole Yes you confuse me Yes you make things harder 
But you also protected me 
You are not something to hate You are something to understand And I will not be afraid of my own mind


INSOMNIA 
you stretch nights into something endless heavy suffocating You steal rest and leave me hollow 
But my body remembers sleep Even if it takes time Even if it fights for it You are not permanent You are interruption not control


SOCIAL ANXIETY 
you turn people into threats you turn silence into fear You try to shrink me Smaller Quieter Invisible 
But I refuse 
I will not disappear just to make you comfortable I belong here in the same spaces the same rooms the same world as everyone else You do not get to take that from me


SUICIDAL THOUGHTS 
you whisper gently like you are offering peace You call ending everything relief But I know what you are You are escape dressed up as an answer 
I am not handing my life over to a lie


ADDICTION 
you pretend to help you pretend to soothe 
But slowly quietly you take everything You offer comfort You deliver damage 
I see the trade now You are not a friend 
And I will not keep paying your price


SELF HARM 
you promise release through pain you call it control But you leave marks that last longer than the moment ever did 
You are not healing You are harm no matter how you are framed I will find another way 
I will survive what I feel without you


PANIC DISORDER 
you strike without warning fast brutal overwhelming You try to convince me I am dying You lock me inside my own body and dare me to escape 
But listen carefully 
I have survived every single time Every time You have never finished what you started Not once And all of you every voice every distortion every lie You can be loud You can push pull shake overwhelm But you are not me 
You never were And you do not get the final say


TO EACH OF YOU 
I am not the sum of your noise Not the echo of your worst days Not the name of any diagnosis you tried to carve into me 
I am the one who stayed The one who learned Who fought Who endured And when all of you fade into background static into nothing 
I will still be here 
Whole 
Breathing 
Undeniably ME