Today, I weep,then sleep,then weep again
like that lost sock from the laundry as I sit alone; the weight of the world sits deep within my emotions

I reach for the remote yet the TV screen feels like a cruel joke, laughter without warmth,voices from other lives, all pretend

I try to hold on,but the walls are closing in as I sit in the silence now, I think of the calls not made,the texts that never came

Life wears a heavy coat today,and I wear it as the reminder that others are busy,or indifferent; hard to be that war when I was taught by example and no one now can fill the shoes of my teachers

Where is the family?
Where is the embrace?

I’ve created my own solitude,a fortress of isolation,and here I am,bathed in loneliness,the only companion who stays through the night; myself and my loneliness

Tomorrow might be different, yet I can’t imagine how, but today, it is what it is and I hate it